I got to go to Sprinkles Ice Cream on opening day and we ran into Candace Nelson, founder and owner, while we were there :) I geeked out so hard…

being home is kinda hard

I feel like my family brings out all my insecurities. Everything that I once worried about comes and haunts me when I’m at home. At Berkeley, I’m somewhat carefree, I have fun with my friends, and I’m content knowing that God loves me no matter what happens and He has a great and perfect plan for my life. At home, I have no freedom, I’m constantly reminded of how fat I am, and I feel like my parents don’t understand how difficult Berkeley is and see me as some sort of failure. I don’t like this. I need to get back on track with God.

finals are not final

Someone just commit suicide from a different building in the same dorm area that I used to live in… I didn’t know the guy but we had a class together last year. 

Just remember- you are more than your grades. Perhaps there’s more of a reason he commit suicide, but I also don’t think it’s a coincidence that this happened during finals week. So remember, even when you’re stressing like crazy and you don’t know how you’re going to have the will power or energy to study, you will make it through. Things will get better.

Call to me and I will answer you and tell you great and unsearchable things you do not know.

Jeremiah 33:3

jesusandmusic:

I’ve found a love greater than life itself 
I’ve found a hope stronger and nothing compares 
I once was lost now I’m alive in you 

It feels really good to say that I find my joy in something greater and actually mean it. This song will definite stick with me.

Lord, have your way with me.

Ever since I decided that I wanted to get baptized about a month ago, God has really been testing me. Life this semester had been absolutely perfect up until a few weeks ago. God has allowed me to be sick again. At first, I felt lonely, just like last time. I was unwilling to trust others, but I realized it shouldn’t be that way. God has truly blessed me with a community that loves me. I’ve been more open with struggle to trust Him lately, and I’m starting to realize which friends in my life love me enough to take deal with how pathetic I’ve been.

Likewise, in the past couple of weeks, more friends have opened up to me about their deepest darkest struggles than ever before. I’m usually good at giving people advice, but not only are these secrets so deep that I can’t understand it, my sickness has enabled me from feeling too much. I feel apathetic or anxious towards everything and I feel like I’m in no place to help anyone right now. I think God is showing me how much I love others too. He’s teaching me that I’m not the only one with problems and that loving others is more than just caring for them and laughing with them; it’s also about crying with them and learning to get out of our darkest moments with each other. 

The love I’ve felt for some of my friends these past few weeks is unexplainable. I’m so blessed and God constantly reminds me of it.

And He has said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for power is perfected in weakness.” Most gladly, therefore, I will rather boast about my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ may dwell in me. Therefore I am well content with weaknesses, with insults, with distresses, withpersecutions, with difficulties, for Christ’s sake; for when I am weak, then I am strong.

2 Corinthians 12: 9-10

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so thankful for such beautiful people in my life.

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T___T true story….

if you want to make God laugh, tell Him you have a plan

Things I thought before college:

• Get into Haas (Berkeley’s business school) or life is over.
• I’m going to work for Cal Women’s Basketball all 4 years and work my way to the top so I can get a similar job after graduating
• I want to minor in Industrial Engineering
• I’ll join a business club and it’ll be fun
• Sororities are dumb
• Berkeley is a very liberal place and I’m going to have to work really hard to keep my faith.
• I’ll keep in touch and be besties with all my high school friends
• I’m a hopeless cause and I am #foreveralone

Things that are now true:

• I didn’t get into Haas (meaning I can’t major in Business anymore) and I’m super content with the fact that God has a plan for my life
• Possible major(s): Media Studies, Statistics
• Possible minor(s): Statistics, Disability Studies
• I quit my job and I don’t think I’ll be going back
• I didn’t even attempt to join a business club
• I’m in a sorority and I hope to have more leadership positions in it
• Berkeley is a pretty liberal place, but God has surrounded me with a community that encourages me to grow everyday. 
• I rarely talk to people from high school
• I have an amazing, caring boyfriend who I wouldn’t trade for the world.

I got another little sis this semester! Her name is Rebecca. She’s pretty great.

It’s really strange how God likes to take the plans we have for ourselves and change them. I was always adamant against having more than one little sis. In my mind, a little sis is someone I would mentor to for her entire college career. I just thought it’d be too much work to try to dedicate myself to more than one person in such a way. When the pledge mom (also my pledge sis<3) was talking me about how she did not have enough girls that were interested in being big sis’s, I told her to put me down, but only if she needed me. It turns out, she did need me. 

I’m so blessed and grateful to have Rebecca in my life. Never would I have expected the experience of having another little to be so… great. During devo a few weeks ago, our Devo Chair (my other pledge sis<3) talked about how we should have at least 3 friends in our life: one who helps us grow spritually, one to walk beside us as we grow, and one to mentor. I really feel like I was placed in Rebecca’s life at the perfect time. I feel like I’m able to mentor to her and help her in such a way that may be difficult for other girls. I’m able to relate to her in such a way that I haven’t been able to do with anyone in a while. 

I’m really excited for how this semester will turn out. I’m excited to have a bigger ADX family and for what kind of road God takes her and I on. 

Me: These are pretty! How did you figure out what to get?
Him: Well, I know you like Laker colors….
♥

My first Valentine’s Day with a boyfriend. He’s not that romantic, but he sure knows what to say and do to make me smile :) 

Last night, we handed out bids. It’s like my job as rush chair is coming full circle. I’m so excited for this semester and the pledges we’re going to have! Thank you to everyone for supporting me through this :)

Finally, pictures of us that I actually like. Thanks Alice (@missonederland)! :)

so this new girl is moving into the ADX house...